Trypanophobia vs Bone Marrow Biopsy

Momma is such a strong and tough woman, she isn’t afraid of most things which we would usually freak out. However, she got  Trypanophobia (needle phobia)! Last night, she told me that she is very stress and scare because of the Bone Marrow Biopsy. I re-assure that the procedure is not going to let you feel any pain, or the most with slight discomfort. I told her that I had Epidural once, and the initial procedure works the same way. I’m the most timid person in the family, and I can do it so I bet she can!

Late last night, I surf most of the Bone Marrow Biopsy (BMB) website to collect all the reviews information and share with her the moment I step into her ward. I even told her that I watched the whole procedure video and I can assure that it is not going to give her any much discomfort. Yes, I’m telling little white lies again because I peep throughout the video. For those who Google about this procedure and worried about the pain? Well, I am proud to say that my momma has done it! I walked her into the lab, feeling so stress inside and keep reminding every nurses/doctor/whoever that walk into the lab that momma got needle phobia and please take great care of her. The doctor keeps calming her down, while some of our relatives stood outside the room and give her all the encouragement words. At that moment, I saw my momma tension has reduce slightly.

The doctor have to carry the BMB, thus we gotta come back in another half an hour time. Within that long wait, I finally saw the door open and momma look perfectly fine. She still can walk and crack some jokes. At that time, I know everyone in the lab has done a great job!

When we reached the ward, the neighbouring patients told my momma that its not gonna hurt at all. She needs to lie on her back for 6 hours and avoid much movement. Momma didn’t had her lunch and feels lethargic. I ask her to get some rest, while I just stay beside.

Momma resting

Daylon was babysit by my dad and sister during the early noon, then send to my mother in law after late noon. I wished I can spilt my body between Daylon and Momma but I can’t. I feel guilty for leaving Daylon with different people but there isn’t any person which can help us. I hope Momma can recuperate and be home soon.

Last but not least, I still need to work! No matter how sad or devastated it can be, I still need to bring in income to hold my home up. During this time, monetary plays a big part too. I am really torn between illness, kid and monetary. I just ask for a better comfort on juggling between all these.

Momma is attended by Dr Aloysius Ho, Senior Consultant. But till to date, I still have yet to speak to him… I hope to hear good news from him.

Daylon first visit to his granny ward

Today, I decided to cook a small portion of sesame braised chicken for momma side dish. Actually I wanted to cook more dishes for her, but I didn’t have any thermos flask or jar to keep the food warm.

Actually I decided to bring Daylon to take train down to hospital. However Lee called and said that he is able to fetch us there as he go some work to be done around the east area.

We managed to reached Momma’s ward around 3pm. I was held back by the security as the visiting hour is over. I told them that my mom requested me to bring home cook food down and proudly show them my Tupperware! The check-in officer is nice enough, he gave me the visitor pass. Not only that, he even guided me to get caretaker pass so I do not need to register every now and then. Big thank you!

The moment, both Daylon and I walked into the ward. My dad looked so excited and told my momma that her “bomb” is here! My momma’s face filled with energy, to receive her “bomb”, Daylon in her arms.

I believe my elder Sis has gathered up her emotion and she’s here to help everyday. With our moral support and encouragement, I believe momma will feel stronger.

Daylon did heaps of cute and not cute things. As usual, the not so cute is where he whine or start messing around with curious fingers and hyper legs. However there’s something cute about him! He snuggle up with Momma cozily on her ward.

The train is gonna reach my home, so I’m gonna stop blogging here.

One last thing, Lee, Daylon and I were down with terrible cough and slight flu. So tentatively he can’t visit his granny.

11.11.11

11.11.11, is gonna be an unforgettable date.

My eyes were red and puffy. I couldn’t sleep well last night and was awaken by my elder sister text. I couldn’t understand why she chose to text me as early as 6am odd. Worst of all, with all the apology contents that she can’t withhold emotions, heading home with her ex, it’s up for us to judge, blah blah blah…

Ok, I’m done with this! Period!

Lee had send momma, Daylon and myself to my uncle’s family doctor, Dr Lee. We’re seeking for 2nd opinion, hoping that we can get the best doctor with subsidy medical benefits. However, Dr Lee says that we can’t appoint any specialist under subsidize patient. The estimated medical bill is 50,000 per monthly under private patient. And this is gonna be a lifetime treatment.

Momma is very calm throughout, even though I caught her welling up with teary eyes. I couldn’t bring myself to speak much because I may sob anytime. I keep staring at the celling, sky or out of the window and hoping the air can dry up those uncontrollable tear drops.

Dr Lee wanted my momma to admit into A&E immediately, and seek for necessary treatment urgently.

Lee came to pick Daylon, as my MIL is willing to babysit and I can accompany my momma. I can’t thank her enough for this.

Eldest Uncle and Aunt volunteer to accompany us to the hospital. I really thank them for that 2hours! With them around, I can help my momma with all the registration while somebody keep her accompany. My dad couldn’t join us as the new aircon has to be installed today.

All the running, waiting and sitting, my momma finally got a bed ward. I forwarded out her ward details to my uncle and sister. Next thing I knew was, elder Sis called up sobbing and asked me momma is in critical stage. I couldn’t speak much but said no. And she hung up.

I could only accompany my mom till 9pm as the visiting ends at 8.30pm. Lee looks hagged, as he plays a big part by buying dinner for dad before visiting momma. Plus all the fetching, sending and rushing.

We headed home to packed our bags, headed to MIL’s house to fetch Daylon, then go back to dad’s home. Because my dad is scare so we have to bunk in here to keep my dad company.

Seriously, I wished Joey will be back from her Paris holiday so I can reveal everything to her.

I’m tired but will do everything just for my momma.

Pls keep her in your prayers…

God bless momma.